
I know how my grandma felt
By Smitha Vishwanath
Married at thirteen, widowed at forty
I know how my grandma felt
She said, I was a lot like her
I understand why...now
Almost all her days were spent at home
Each day, moving like a clock
She woke up at five, made four meals, kept a clean home
raised four children, lost one; not much in common with the life I’ve led
But the in-between breakfast and lunch, lunch and tea,
and tea and dinner -
when she’d walk the grounds, inspecting each hibiscus flower and coconut tree,
when she’d talk to the crows hovering over and the cats and dogs trespassing
when after lunch, she’d sit on the porch and read the newspaper,
pausing now and then to look at the neighbour's clucking hens and the mooing cows,
and the sweet green mangoes and guavas dangling on the boughs before her
It's the in-between that I understand
As I sit now on the porch and look at the shadows
that the sun makes of the washing line, the pink and purple pegs,
the travelling palms, African lilies, allisons, and the geraniums
on the green grass, I feel a slice of heaven has been served to me
That’s how Grandma must have felt every day of her life
from thirteen to ninety, when she breathed her last.

Smitha Vishwanath is a Pushcart Prize nominee. An ex-banker, she began sharing her writing through her blog in 2016. In 2019, she co-authored a poetry book, Roads- A Journey with Verses and in 2023, she published her debut novel, Coming Home. Her poems have been published in several magazines, including Borderless Journal, Thieving Magpies, Spillwords Press and Masticadores USA. An avid reader, book reviewer, and artist, she loves nature, travelling, and learning about different cultures. She currently resides in Nairobi, Kenya.