
Dancing On the Edge
By Jeena R Papaadi
I’ve been hovering on the edge of the cliff
Contemplating flight for a long time.
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Wandering around it, peering over cautiously,
Assessing the depth, gauging possibilities, all bleak
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Returning to my safe zone, fantasising about a non-existent
Cloak of protection; Shuddering for good measure.
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You see, I once was the ruler of this valley and the hill.
They fell at my feet... But that’s all in the past.
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Today I’m called up to justify my existence.
It’s their world, their rules. Their judgement awaits.
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One by one, they’ll come for each one of us. It’s time.
No, I’ll not give in. Nor give them the pleasure.
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The need to be reckless, the desire to be wild
The joy of free fall, the urge to let go
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To fling oneself headlong over the endless chasm.
Wouldn’t you rather die than be killed?
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And so I pass the edge in a mad rush; the wind takes me.
Will my parachute open? Will the ropes hold?
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Will the safety nets appear down below, ready
To gather me into their arms? Here I go—

Jeena R. Papaadi is a writer based in Bengaluru and Thiruvananthapuram, with six published books. Her poems, essays and stories are featured or are forthcoming in several publications including The Hindu, Borderless Journal, The Hemlock Journal, Dissent Dispatch, The Wise Owl Daily Verse, Kitaab, European Association of Palliative Care and Aksharasthree. Jeena’s writings are listed at: https://linktr.ee/jeenapapaadi